I'm Superfluous (thanks for asking)

Shame lies deep and heavy on my heart:
I am lonely.
Words I fear to tell you,
And words you will never ever understand.

You will never know what it is
To feel completely irrelevant, spare,
Superfluous,
Unwanted and unnoticed by anyone.

Not even hated,
Just unnoticed, under the radar
Of important things to consider;
I am barely even there.

I do not matter
(apparently)
Enough to be thought of
In my own right.

You can never know what this means
And will never see my shame,
Desperation, degragation,
Humiliation, ever present.

I am so very lonely.
And I want to matter.
That is all.